6 am... so damm tired plus stcuck with lot of works...so more have to work for 10 days without rest next week... shit... here i am having a puff... my 5th cigarettes for today... lately, there few people around me asking me to stop smoking... i don't know why... maybe they love me so much... terperasan lak...hehehehe...asked me questions which i can't really explained to them because they themselves are passive smoker... some asked do i need to smoke that much... why should i smoke at the first place... don't you know that smoking kills you... cause lung cancer,etc... don't you know that how much money you already wasted all this time... pening nak jawab soalan-soalan nie... well, i started smoking for the last 11 years now... reason... there is none... just feel like i wanna smoke... get hooked by this bitch called Malboro...Damm, she's hot enough... a truely seducer... to those who love me so much... thank you for your concern... really appriciate(rite spelling...?) it so much...

i was hanging around with friends of mine last weekend nite...when suddenly 2 of them having some discussion... and then ask me a question... are man really fragile...??? first, i didn't get what their's mean... but, they explained it to me, then i get what they are trying to say... i realised that it's something have to do with feelings and emotions... between friend... which the guy fall in love (yucks) with his own friend... where the girl doesn't has any feeling towards the guy... the girl is like threat that guy as the same as other friends... not more than that... and this friend of mine, ask me why man are so fragile in this kind of thing...? for them, normally girl s are fragile... i don't really know the right answer for it... maybe that guy got misunderstood about their's frienship... or get lost in the way... don't the differences coz he blind maybe... or maybe it's just the way of his thinking is short...?

ever wonder suddenly u feel not too sure... seem like a song from silverchair (if i'm not mistaken)... something did happened to you... and u're not too sure about that... but, somehow u can't stop smiling nor laugh... even if u're alone at that time... there's anxiety grow inside your heart each time that particular thing pop up inside your brain... curiosity playing game with you... it's like hide and seek... and butterfly inside your stomach...

wonder why everything seem colourful... wonder why everything so calm... wonder why everything is so clear... wonder why everything so Cherish... wonder why everything so joyful... wonder why everything so nice.... wonder why everything so near... wonder why everything full with life...

yet u still searching for it... yet u still can't stop thinking about it... yet u still looking for the answer... yet u still not sure about it... yet u still blur about it... yet you still believe in it... yet you still hold it tight...

such a weird feeling without no sense.....

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